I know I've informed you about my breakup, but well... I have not actually talk about the whole entire breakup.
In short, I came to this heartbreaking decision last Monday, having mustered enough courage and determination to uproot this relationship. He didn't love me, although he might have cared for my feelings and wellbeing to a certain extent. All the broken promises, the time he had but didn't want to spend with me, the oh-whatever attitude toward me, his then-girlfriend, apparently "one true love". I was simply a girl who caught his eye. Something nice to have around, whose company was enjoyable.
Unlike me, he was on his break at that time. He texted me the evening, asking me how I was.
Fine. It was all I sent back.
As expected, he asked if anything had happened.
Nothing. I said.
Sensing something, he asked if I wanted him to call.
No.
Is there anything? He inquired again.
Nothing.
Then, he texted Jennifer, a close friend of mine, asking how I was. He added, that I was "acting oddly". Unbeknownst to him, Jennifer was just sitting right across the table, already aware of my decision. Jennifer told him to ask me instead.
Around 7.30 pm, just when I was about to shower, he called.
I went out to the balcony, to where it began in the first place, to deliver my first breakup speech.
"You have been wanting me to end it for some time already, right?!" Angry tears started to stream down my face. He had, all these while, lied about loving me.
And of course, he denied it. Oh, he sounded so innocent about it. But I had already seen it coming, and there was no way I would make any mistake.
"Since you don't give a damn, why should I f___king care?" I screamed at him, while the waterworks continued.
"I don't want to lose you..." He began, the standard line that made me stay so many times. But I would not be deceived anymore.
"Don't you realize that you have already lost me?"
So, he didn't realize that.
"You want to end it, just like that?"
"Yes!!" I wanted to end the unreal relationship, to move on. I knew, that I could be happier, a lot happier without him.
And so I became a happy single again.
To all of you, especially those who have not been in a relationship before. Contrary to popular belief, being in a relationship isn't really only all about "he loves her, and she loves him, so they are together". It requires commitment from both sides, trust, responsibility amongst other things, and living up to them all the time.
Moreover, being in a relationship isn't always equated to happiness. See? I'm way happier now.
There, I'm striding forward, surviving, victoriously, gloriously.
Yes, I heard that he appears to be sad lately. But, I know for sure that he's down not because he lost me, but because he was "dumped".
Okay. Whatever. I've become so strong that I would never fall back into his arms, ever again.
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